What do you search for within yourself?

Strength. Intellectually, I know I am strong. I have been through enough at my young age, unfortunately, that my strength has been proven. Emotionally, I feel, most of the time, very weak. There are days when I feel as if the slightest little thing would cause me to crumble and it is those times when I search deep within myself to find my inner strength.

My faith helps in this quite a bit. A recent concert I went to allowed me the privilege to see a performer by the name of Jason Gray. He reminded me that it is not "the strong, the beautiful, the brave/not ... the ones who think they've got it made" but it is "the poor, the broken and the meek" that receive the Kingdom of God. In our weakness, God is made stronger and we can find our strength in Him. God uses my wounds, my imperfection, to bless me and others and to show His light to others.

So I search for strength within myself -- not the strength that masks the weakness, but the strength that allows me to stand in the face of my weakness and accept it fully, to move past it and use it to grow and further my spiritual development.